throng of endless individuals
overwhelms every hair on my body
the door to the car closes and
the relief exudes from every pore
until someone asks if
anyone else is sitting there
finally coming home to
nothing but an empty house
and a full blanket
sets myself at ease
drawing the curtains closed
tighter against the blinds
encases me in a dark friend
enough to see to read
enough to let me be
sweet swell of ocean waves
in front of my boarded up childhood home
reminded me sometimes of the estuaries
back east
a mix of clear and calm with
hint of salt water
creating taffy on my tongue
as i inhaled
exhale of expectations turn
flower into weeds
and saplings into
kindling – igniting
the boarded up home with
a spray of sea salt
the green flames turning
a plot of a memory against
the sweet swell of the sea
into a mirrored image
of blue and green
there's a drop of lead in
each of my legs
as i walk towards
the cabin that desolated us
each step is a sinker
crunching through uncharted promises
snowshoes not enough to
lift my weight from the world
below
Atlas yet crouches
but am I still left
standing, with anyone else besides me?
the poison creeps down my bones
but my Sigyn has sighed
her last breath
and my fleeting
resolution swells over
cobbled walls and
throws the world into sin
as much as i love this place
it’s odorless as i search fervently,
like a blue-black raven
looking for a lost ring in a
sea of slivers and grass,
for a scent of you others
get to call home
but there are countless
miles of landmarks and
highway routes collecting
spackled wishes and
keeping your comfort
and company
from me (for now)
but yet a Southern breeze
honeyed by late night skype calls,
1:42pm texts
- the sound of your nose scrunching
when you light up the room
settles inside of me
like home
please don’t grasp onto
my paper thin
pin-holed walls,
like i myself can puppeteer
the architect to
freely erect them once
you’ve overspent your
welcome
my roof is paper thin
& pin-holed, too,
space-way destinations
counted like constellated lambs,
glowing white against a midnight,
rolling hill
& sometimes falling
back to my paper thin
& pin-holed self,
escaping the big bad wolf,
for only a blink
please don’t pin-hole
my already paper thin walls with
your perpetually grasping
caterpillar ways
for i am not a leaf on a branch
i am a glowing white lamb
& i belong to the rolling,
midnight hill
permanence is words
uttered after the door has been
slipped closed
a drag of feet on the 7pm train
bound home
lips smiling too much to
actually press together
soft flicker of hearts
and a crinkle of time
may bring someone’s permanence
to an end but what is forever
without first sometimes?